I did everything right - I know I did everything right.
Everything was like it should, everything was like it was supposed to be,
everything was perfect and exactly in place as before - you were gone.
And like a girl on New Year’s eve I couldn't sleep longing to be
where I would find - you.
I ran out the car and down our path
onto our beach and into our water
my heart beat stopped - I think - for a second.
A crushing wave as high as the sky
it hit me - straight to my gut.
I screamed “Stop playing! Stop messing around!“
Yet I knew. Oh, how I knew better.
Then I took my body to places ‘round
so that everyone could see - I’m doing ok,
without you.
Finally - exhausted - sat next to our daddy
put my head on his shoulder and held his hand tight
looked over the sea and into the sky
“Merciless summer sun,
when did you become so harsh?”
And I cried. Oh how I cried - missing you.
Yes, I looked for you in all of our familiar places
but you were nowhere - to be found.
Oh, you were nowhere - to be found
on our first vacation without you.
Kika Georgiou
#pethimose